Pity party over, and our town's annual Pioneer Day

A quick comment on my last post.  I'm happy to say the pity party is over. I sometimes get stymied by life's happenings. We all do, right? About 10 minutes after I posted that entry, I contemplated deleting it. I decided not to because it's real. It is how I was feeling and those feelings are something I struggle with from time to time. I learn daily and learning means growth. I can live with people knowing that about me. :)

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Today was our town's annual Pioneer Day celebration. We woke up to deliciously cool weather. The town square was bustling as I drove Stephen to the band hall to prepare for the parade. He couldn't march this year due to his knee, but they made accomodations....by strapping a chair into the back of the band director's truck. That's where Ste rode for the parade!

He was glad he got to participate! 

After the parade, the band performed on the town square. Here's our tuba players:

Go Band!!

Comparison and all that

I ask Him why a lot. As in, "Why me?" or "Why not me?" And I listen. Waiting for the answer as if a note is going to drift down from the heavens and, not only answer my question, but also give me a timeline and what to do in the meantime.

This "why me or why not me" stuff is not new. I clearly  remember as child imploring to the heavens, "God! Why do I have to be shy AND chubby AND have this damnable dry skin?" Ok, I probably didn't utter the word damnable, but, you know what I mean. Surely there was no other girl on earth that had to deal with all THREE of these traits at ONCE!

My whys are different now. But probably no more mature. No more thought out and reflected upon.

"Why can't I have the fulfilling career I want, exactly how I want it?"
"Why do these awesome God filled things seem to happen to EVERYone but ME?

I'm not proud of the questions.

I'm not proud of the self-pity.

I KNOW how blessed I am. How LOVED I am...by my Father in heaven, by my husband, my son and my circle of family and friends.

But I still ask, "WHY can't I hear You speak to me Lord? Why don't You show me what to do to achieve my dreams? Why are THEY more special? More deserving?"

I read blogs. Blogs I LOVE to read. And I'm jealous. I compare. And I know comparison is the thief of joy and all that. I KNOW it. Yet, I still want to crawl into their situation. I want to be MORE than I am. For me, for my husband, for my son, for Him. But I don't know how. And I sometimes...for real... feel like He selfishly just won't tell me or show me what steps to take. And I'm ashamed for feeling that way.

But, then sometimes, I realize the problem is my lack of praying, my lack of LISTENING for an answer, and my lack of DOING.

This is my struggle right now.

Humbly,

~Amy

I need a shoe-tervention

I have a shoe problem.
No, not too many (though my husband might argue that).
I'm a failure at picking out shoes. That I'll wear more than one time....
I need help! Can you help me?
I need a few pair of comfortable shoes, that will match a variety of outfits. Any suggestions?

This is the shoe I'm wearing today. {cell phone pic}

 

It is a comfortable shoe by Bjorndal. I like these shoes. But the heel..yes that teeny heel, makes my calves hurt if I have to run any errands in them. The are fine for the minimal walking I do at work. There's a big BUT though! As I walk, the hem of my pants suck down into the back of my shoe. OY...shoe problem!

Ok, help me! If you have some shoe suggestions, please leave them in comments! Casual and work wear! :)

~Amy




This week...

I'm joining Dana at Old Red Barn Co to share some of my life this week...

• I have been completely lazy at home this week. Utterly, entirely lazy. 
• Washing an outfit per night to wear the next day to work, lazy.
• Cooked only one evening meal this week, lazy.
• Found out my son has to have surgery on his knee.
• Which kinda threw me into the "dumps."
• Which is probably why the lazy.
• Work was not lazy
• Work was busy, busy.
• End of year State reporting, busy.
• Glad it's over, busy.
• The lazy allowed me to start watching season 1 of Bones on Netflix.
• I liked it.

~Amy

Surgery Smurgery

The MRI results are in and surgery is required. Surgery Smurgery.

Surgery means no football, no marching band, no power lifting, no shot put... not for Sophomore year anyways.

It looks like early October is when the surgery will take place. Please say prayers for my boy. There will be a grueling, 9 month recovery period following this surgery. It will be his toughest challenge yet.

But he's a strong fella. Physically and Mentally.

Football smootball.

This week...

I'm joing Dana at the Old Red Barn Co, to talk a bit about the goings on of this week...

This week was crazy busy. Crazy. Lots to do in the evenings after work that kept me away from the house late, which means I didn't get things done at home that needed to be done. To be honest, I'm not ready to start a new week. Yet, it is almost here, and I will do my best to face it with positivity!

This week was band booster meeting, Meet the Teacher, and Meet the Pirates. Meet the Pirates is an annual event at my son's high school. The community comes out to listen to the Marching Band play and to "meet" the high school fall sport athletes. Guess which one is mine? :)

On Thursday evening I met up with other Varsity Moms to decorate the boys locker room and make goody bags. That was lots of fun. This is Stephen's first year on varsity so this was something new for me.

Stephen is still injured, so he hasn't got to play a game yet. He is missing it! He does get to perform with the marching band...but doesn't actually march. They put him in a folding chair during the performance.

He had an MRI on Saturday. Though his diagnosis was a Sprained MCL, we wanted to rule out the possibility of cartilage damage, which would require surgery. Hoping to hear something early this week.

Also this week, I tried a new breakfast recipe. Ham & Cheese Mini Breakfast Pies - they were a hit in our house! I plan to make up a big batch and freeze for quick weekday breakfasts.

Dandelion

 I still haven't posted all the vacation photos I wanted to. Looking through my photos today, I was reminded of these huge dandelions I saw in Spearfish Canyon, SD back in July. They're gorgeous really. I've never seen any this big. I wanted to close my eyes, make a wish, and blow the seeds to the four winds.